tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6023809369245556096.post7517088935576107470..comments2024-02-01T17:19:36.475-05:00Comments on My heart goes out...: "Too much for anyone..."Carolhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14545146592743875490noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6023809369245556096.post-21496199015198005432010-04-07T07:28:45.725-04:002010-04-07T07:28:45.725-04:00To anonymous 11:12 and 10:10, and to Jenny Wren - ...To anonymous 11:12 and 10:10, and to Jenny Wren - I don't deserve the wonder or appreciation you share, but I DO feel a ton of love from your comments you leave, and I humbly say, "thank you."<br /><br />Anonymous 10:10 - I'm so glad you share bits and pieces of your story here. I know you are going to emerge from this...strangeness that you didn't ever expect in your life. You are welcome to say whatever you want to, as long as it helps you. (If you want, you can make up a name and sign at the end of your posts, so that readers can distinguish your anonymous posts from others.) I'm so glad for your input!Carolhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14545146592743875490noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6023809369245556096.post-21124184781723364482010-04-06T22:10:38.752-04:002010-04-06T22:10:38.752-04:001. Good counselor -- check. And she's a wond...1. Good counselor -- check. And she's a wonderful Christian woman who understand that my husband didn't choose to be gay.<br /><br />2. I couldn't live with having a gay husband -- ditto. Especially when that gay husband had been cheating on me for the past 4 years, often bringing men into our home and having sex in the marital bed. I know he had no choice about being gay. But he had a big choice about being unfaithful and promiscuous.<br /><br />3. Finding an affirming, supportive church -- check. I have a WONDERFUL church filled with people who accept our gay music minister and his partner, the gay men who sing in the choir, the woman I just learned found herself in my same situation a few years ago and with just a look can let me know she understands what I'm going through.<br /><br /><i>I didn't know I could hurt that bad and not die from it.</i> Neither did I, and 14 months after discovering my husband is gay, it still hurts so bad, especially since he initially told me he wouldn't fight me in divorce court and would make things right, and now he's doing just the opposite.<br /><br />One thing I've never done is ride the guilt train. I did nothing to deserve this. I do ask "Why me?" sometimes and hope that maybe I can use this experience to help others.<br /><br />But because my husband insisted I sign a non disclosure clause at mediation (and then later reneged on the settlement), I'm in limbo and have to stay closeted right along with him. And that just plain sucks! I don't want to ruin him, but it would be nice to be able to discuss the situation with my grown children and correct some of the misinformation their father has sent in their direction.<br /><br />I look to you, Carol, as an example of a woman living her faith, not always an easy task, but a task you feel honor bound to do. I just hope I can be half the woman you are.<br /><br />Blessings to you.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6023809369245556096.post-88117441763596448002010-04-06T18:13:59.370-04:002010-04-06T18:13:59.370-04:00Carol, I love you, and think you are so brave to p...Carol, I love you, and think you are so brave to post you thoughts and feelings, I cant imagine how it would feel to be in your shoes.<br /><br /> I love to sew also, I just wish I knew how to make things fit when I'm done.<br />JennyJenny wren's nesthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18089562243040960670noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6023809369245556096.post-40708951458344747122010-04-06T11:12:29.059-04:002010-04-06T11:12:29.059-04:00Carol, I marvel at your journey. I have a similar...Carol, I marvel at your journey. I have a similar, yet different story, as a Christian coming out of my lesbian closet. You have been such an encouragement to me, whether via this blog or your amazing interview on GCN. Thank you for sharing your heart so authentically and for loving others so thoroughly. You are a wonder!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com